Monday Morning

So I didn’t get up at 5:00 AM. I didn’t get up till just after 8:00 AM. In order for me to get up that early I am definitely going to have to get to sleep before midnight.

I am at Method Coffee right now. I have read Our Daily Bread – didn’t get much from that this morning. I also read the April 10th entry from Answers in the Heart. It talked about intimacy which is something I do struggle with.

I need Honesty and Willingness to be truly intimate.

I have a deep capacity for intimacy, and my recovery is teaching me how to love.

Is it? I certainly hope that is the case. At the moment I really don’t feel that it is, but I’m going to try and be positive and not negative.

So as I was waking up this morning I had a hard time getting out of bed. I work up with an erection, as per the usual. I considered over and over going to my porn and erotic stories. It was a struggle not to. I’m not sure I will make it through the day, but I made it through that hour.

Hear I am. Thank you Lord for giving me the strength to abstain.

#DailyStruggles #JournalEntry #Porn&Masturbation #Pray #Intimacy #ODB #AnswersInTheHeart

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