I can’t seem to shake this sense of uselessness and hopelessness. More and more each day, my thoughts turn to giving up and letting go. I’m hardly even trying any more to resist porn. I don’t have a vehicle, I don’t have a job, I don’t feel like I’m good at anything. My bank account is emptying faster than I would have thought possible. I have brief moments of motivation but it goes away so quickly. I miss my wife, I miss having a purpose, I’m really struggling.

Oh God can you please give me a purpose, or reveal my purpose? I don’t know what I’m supposed to be doing and I’m scared that I’m going to give up.