And I am doing better, but I still have a very, very long way to go. My Answers in the Heart – May 9th – mediation this morning talk about a couple of things that hit close to home. Self absorption, sluggishness in the morning, wanting to live forever. Vision narrowing until it was only about […]Read more "I thought I was doing better…"
And loneliness… and other things. When I talked to my coach this morning, before my last post. We talked about how I hadn’t been eating that well over the weekend, how I hadn’t been practicing good self care. How I was struggling with motivation. He mentioned that since it’s been almost two week without that […]Read more "It really is withdrawl ( a little explicit or vulgar )"
I think it’s because we have a choice. If you are interested in something from a religious perspective, this might be helpful. I’m just relearning faith, and I’m not sure I get this entirely yet, this document that is, but I think it makes sense and it builds a lot on what Friend shared about his […]Read more "Why is there Pain and Suffering?"
I just started reading it. The first few pages are about vulnerability. I’m already going to thoughts of porn and masturbation in my head. So what does this mean? 1. This probably seems painful to me, therefore I want to avoid and medicate. That’s what my addiction does for me. 2. This is also probably […]Read more "Daring Greatly by Brene Brown"
This morning I just want to start by relating how much of a struggle this addiction can be. Forget the root of the problem and how I came to be this way; never mind whether or not this is normal or whether other people deal with these same things, this is what I deal with. […]Read more "It really is a struggle… (oh and I’m an asshole)"