I need to brush my teeth…

I thought this was supposed to be getting easier.  It’s not. I had though that knowing more about all of this would help.  It hasn’t. I thought I would be doing better, but I’m not. Addiction, or at least sex addiction is lonely.  The opposite of addiction is supposed to be connection.  Why is connection […]

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First Draft of My Disclosure

So maybe not actually the first draft, but a draft.  They say you can’t heal without doing a disclosure, nor will your marriage ever heal.  I hope they are right, but I don’t see how my marriage will ever heal after she hears all this.  There’s just so much, it’s such an insane amount and […]

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Is this withdrawal?

I can’t seem to get up and do anything. I’m really struggling today. I just keep thinking everything over in my head but not actually doing anything. I’m craving masturbation. I want to act out. I’ve been doing a bit of edging which isn’t too healthy. I have lots to do, but I don’t want […]

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