It more than likely has to do with when I actually get to bed and get to sleep. I didn’t crawl into be until close to midnight, then I read for a little bit and it also took me longer to fall asleep than it usually does. Maybe because I ate late, maybe because I’m […]Read more "Why is it so hard to get out of bed?"
Just saw a couple of attractive women running on the trail, noticed a nipple or two and I just said to myself “aw fuck it lets just jerk of today” I’m thinking this way because I just saw FormerFriend?, an old/former friend and that brought up some pain. This whole morning seems kind of painful.Read more "So…"
This morning I just want to start by relating how much of a struggle this addiction can be. Forget the root of the problem and how I came to be this way; never mind whether or not this is normal or whether other people deal with these same things, this is what I deal with. […]Read more "It really is a struggle… (oh and I’m an asshole)"
This is my attempt at journalling my stream of consciousness. As thoughts pop into my head I am writing them down throughout the day. Well see if it works. Need to donate part of my severance to God. 11:28 AM – Thought about checking out CL. There’s got to be a way to capitalize on […]Read more "Stream of consciousness…"