I Did My Disclosure Today…

I guess what I can say about it is that it wasn’t as bad as I thought.  It was painful and shameful.  Terrifying and nerve wracking but my wife didn’t get up and run out of there screaming.  She did’t look at me with disgust.  She didn’t even get angry. I am scared that she […]

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First Draft of My Disclosure

So maybe not actually the first draft, but a draft.  They say you can’t heal without doing a disclosure, nor will your marriage ever heal.  I hope they are right, but I don’t see how my marriage will ever heal after she hears all this.  There’s just so much, it’s such an insane amount and […]

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I’m so scared…

I’m so scared of losing MyWife. I know she doesn’t really believe that, but it’s true. I’m terrified of it. As she was talking this evening about her therapy sessions, both yesterday and today, she mentioned grieving. She needs to grieve. I fear it’s grieving me and our relationship and moving away from me. (Here […]

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